Living like there is no other day to live.

There are just some beautiful people in the world who know how to do this.  Live like there is no other day to live.  Just the ordinary, beautiful life set before you, right here.  On this day.  Everyday.

Kathy is one of these people.  She has taught me how to live more fully, be a better teacher, an intuitive mother, a sensitive and loyal friend.  -And she is teaching me how to let go.  -And I thought that she was my student.  I am so humbled this week in the effect of surrendering, yielding, falling back into the arms of Grace.  As I let go of Kathy.

I want. I want. I don't want.

Isn't it funny when that deep and wondrous thing that you want, that you are culling from the cavernous depths of your heart manifests as the thing you don't want?  

And then you are staring at it face to grimacing face, going, "but, I don't want this" when it arises from the hearts' wellspring.

So that's how it goes.  You set your most sincere intention in seeking (like a temper-tantrum-throwing toddler with a three-word vocabulary) that thing that you thought you wanted. And, when it finally is yours:  you toss your head in disgust, throw your body to the floor, and hurl the third word, "mine" (which you thought you were ready to embrace) out the door.  

Lucky I am the humble student to a real-life toddler. Maybe the burgeoning toddler within will learn a thing or two.

New Year's Unresolutions

To do or not to do. Not to do is what Patanjali wanted the yogi to do. The first two of eight limbs of yoga refer to ethical guidelines in matters of the self and in society. They are all about undoing, letting go, doing less.  

For the New Year, I resolve to follow her advice:

Do less in order to create more space. Speak less so that I may hear more. Let go of the past to make room for the tomorrow. Get rid of, so that I may gain. Simplify to to allow for creativity.

What do you resolve not to do?