Well, I have to be completely honest. I really had to think about what I might post tonight. And, here's the thing, I am still thinking about it, as I muse, here. And, that's not fair. Your time is important. As is mine.
AND what I do know is that this whole putting-yourself-out-there, writing thing can get messy. Actually, it can be brutal. -If I let the creative process get marred by my ego. "Oh, it has to look like THIS..." "Ooooh, I don't want to come across as _______" "What if so and so reads this?" Silliness. And I imagine, it is still something to which many can relate to. So, I continue to write, hoping one of you out there gets it. Even if it is the one of you reading it!
It's that "not enough" syndrome. Or the perfect complex. Or the I-worked-really-hard-for-this picture. Or the always-put-together reputation. Here's the thing. I don't want to have anything to do with that. I don't want YOU to think you need to have anything to do with that. Ok, well, maybe I want a little of that for myself. If I get really honest.
And here is the thing: all of those things, that come by way of the ego, can be part of the Divine or evidence-based (depending upon which camp or path between the camps you walk upon) process of Being. Sure, even as I vow not to use a single back space (I've used one so far) I would love for this blog to be beautiful, or interesting, or inviting....all caught up in my standards and expectations of what it should be...
RATHER THAN WHAT IT IS. So tonight, this is what it is. I hope (another backspace) you can be inspired by trying this theory of Being rather than Striving (it even looks funny capitalized) out for a few hours, for a day or two, maybe for the rest of your life?! (Added exclamation point). What if we really allowed ourselves the opportunity to be just as we are, rather than striving all the time, or at least becoming more aware of when we are all strive-strive-STRIVE! And also not to use the excuse, "I'll get to it/be more present or happy or satisfied when x-y-z" (because that is still avoiding reality because the response is places the moment to moment up against a measuring stick).
This doesn't mean there is also opportunity for reflection, and betterment, and practice. Always that. Just softening the criteria. Letting the creativity of the moment flow through us with little or no judgement. Looking (one more backspace edit) at the ego with curiosity and love, too.
Remember that our expression of living (word substitution) is about a bigger connection. I write this blog to connect with the deepest part of myself I am willing to divulge in connecting with the deepest part of you, that you have available.
Thanks for listening. Share and live.....nahh, love on!
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